Sunday, February 7, 2010

The Function of a Priest

What is a priest, a full-functioning, mystic priest? What does he or she do? Is there anything at all that a priest creates or causes to happen by his own will? Can a priest by "taking thought" or speaking the Word make anything happen in this world? Can she cause the planets to spin or the sun to rise or a baby to be born? No. All of these things were here before we got here. We cannot by any efforting on our part make something that was not already here, already existent in the mind of God. We are co-creators, creating with a power that flows through us, not from us.

When I get out of the way, I feel my consciousness naturally rise into the awareness of God's love. I feel completely taken care of. And as I open up to it, I feel my atmosphere fill with the Light of Christ; my being fairly glows, so much so that the world cannot help but recognize it and respond. It's not me, but it's happening through me. It's not my presence, but the presence of God. I am there, but as a delivery boy, not the author.

And here's the interesting part: if I have an agenda, or if I'm angry at someone and I'm thinking that I'll just "bless" them into submission, or if I think that the world is broken and I'm going to fix it, then nothing happens. No presence, no light, no love. If it were possible for me to do any of those things, that would not be God. That would be me. I would be attempting to create the world in my own image. If anything besides grace and forgiveness comes from me, I have no power to change anything, and the world is made worse by me adding more of what it already has too much of.

Grace and forgiveness are a priest's stock-in-trade.

So what is it that we can do? Well, we can open up to the grace of God and let that be what flows through us to other human beings. We can be the conduit, the mediators for the forgiveness of God to all people everywhere. Jesus asked God to forgive his torturers, "for they know not what they do." And when his disciples asked how many times they should forgive someone, he told them, "Seventy times seven."

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Initiation

Most people are unaware that there is anything more to life than getting "stuff" and improving their standing in the world. Not until they reach a crisis will they start looking for something more. Then they become seekers. If you ask the average person, "What is your life about?" they won't be able to tell you. Life is about initiation, and they don't know anything about that. You have to start with the basics - concentration, mind control, service - for growth to be possible.

Finding God

Edgar Cayce healed by helping the body heal itself. "Works,"such as concentration exercises, meditation, rituals, and other practices, do nothing to make us more spiritual; they only help us get out of the way, help quiet the mind, purify the heart, and animate the body, so that the Spirit can find It's expression in us. That's all. Nothing we can do gets us any closer to God - God reveals God in us where God has been all the time. We have been lost in the periphery of our being, gradually sinking into the Center as we turn away from the cares of this world. And when we are finally empty, unmoved by fear and desire, we find ourselves where we have been all along - in God.

Monday, August 3, 2009

The Body of Christ

There is no literal meaning for the Body of Christ, not in the normal sense of "literal." It has actual existence, but not literal. Let me illustrate what I mean. In the spring of 1995, during her senior year of high school, I drove my younger daughter, Amanda, to a women’s college back east for a "get-to-know-us" visit. As we were driving through the mountains of Virginia, I was looking out of the side window of our rental car at the forests blanketing the slopes off to our left. They stretched for miles in that wonderful, soft kind of way that distinguishes the Appalachians from the Rocky Mountain and Sierra Nevada ranges out West. There are very few places in these older, more weathered mountains that rise above timberline, the elevation above which trees do not grow. So the forests of the eastern United States are more like that velvety covering on a young male deer’s antlers. They hide the hardness of the land, making the trees stand out instead of the geology, more of a botanical majesty than the frozen violence of tectonic force.

As I was taking all of this in, the forest that had been softening the world to my eyes suddenly spoke to me without words. It said, "Look how I move over the land!" And it was. In geologic time, it was moving across the landscape the way a cloud moves across the sky. In my time-lapse vision, the trees in their relentless rising and falling, their growing and decaying, washed over the mountains in a continuous cascade of roots, branches, and leaves. And though the forest comprised a multitude of arboreal entities, these individual trees were but cells of a larger organism - the forest.

I do not know what varieties of trees were commingling there, but each of the species was a forest unto itself. They were passing through each other like pedestrians on a crowded sidewalk, affected but unchanged in their unique identity. Each oak tree was a cell in the vast, sprawling organism called Oak. It had its own direction and its own pace, but was seemingly unaware of the pine trees whose orientation and timetable were so different. And the others—all of them were grazing over the rounded tops of these ancient mountains, the way a starfish crawls over the mounds of sand on the ocean floor, extracting minerals, depositing humus, and breathing oceans of oxygen and water into the air, all the while scrubbing it clean of carbon dioxide with its alveolar leaves and ciliated needles.

What kind of body can spread itself so thin, whose individual cells seem independent from the whole? What mind governs its movements, tells it how to grow, how to die, and how, through the spraying of its seeds, to comport itself across rugged terrain and the periodicity of time? Surely, there must be some ligament of intelligence, a connecting will as invisible as the air itself, a common pulse measured in decades, a single eye fixed in a faraway stare, its brooding vision blanketing time the way forests blanket the mountains.

Each tree is like a glowing ember in the fire of this unitary vision. It grows bright and dull with alternating breath, counted, not by the short attention span of humans, but by the change of seasons. Whatever life moves through it moves through all of it, even those members carried far off by the wind or on the shanks of animals. Regardless of how far, the one pulse and the one breath fan the embers in unison, drawing all together into one body, each flame resonant with every other.

Sometimes, complete absorption can look like indifference. This is how it is with trees. They are utterly filled with forest-consciousness. Their physical location, the relative state of their health, their size, shape, and every other noticeable characteristic, are inconsequential. They can live or die, thrive or suffer, and it does not matter. Because their breath is the one breath, the flame of life in them is the one flame. That which makes them what they are cannot be harmed. It may seem to disappear for a time, the duration of which would exceed human comprehension, but it will always return. If not here, then someplace else. This is how it is with trees.

Do you see how hard it is to speak of the Body of Christ? What can possibly be said? What do trees talk about amongst themselves? Do they discuss the ins and outs of Forest-ness? And if they could speak, and if they could speak to us, how would they match their tempo to ours? Each word would last a lifetime for the average human, much more their silence. And this is how it is with the members of the Body of Christ. That which really matters, that which makes us one in Christ, cannot be spoken. It cannot be analyzed. It can’t even be experienced, not in the way the world serves up its stimulations. And yet it is always there, closer than our breath—a background event—a background that looms large, that overshadows, hopefully to shrink everything in the foreground, reaching over us all, going before us like the crest of a wave precedes the wave itself.

This is how it is with the Body of Christ. How much more complex than a forest, how much wider in its expanse, how much larger its lifespan? Where forests cover mountains of Earth, what is the geography of spirit, what map could describe it? What timberline could contain it? Or is it that this forest only grows above the timberline? And yet it longs to push past it, until all of Earth is made habitable for the sons and daughters of God.

This is how it is with the Body of Christ.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Better Late Than Never

It occurred to me that being "saved by faith, not by works" is the same as saying that one cannot change, as in "transformation," by willpower alone, but that one must ask for help from above. We cannot change ourselves.

Darn it. No heroics - no Ironman - no taking credit. Just humility.

Every time I have tried to change by sheer force of will, I have failed. Every time. But when I ask for help, especially from the Master Jesus or from Mother Mary, I get results so fast and so easily that it's spooky. I mean, shouldn't it be difficult? Shouldn't I have to pay THROUGH THE NOSE? You would think that someone would say, "Sure, I'll help you. But first you have to learn your lesson." At least, that's what I learned in Catholic School. (Thanks a lot, Sister Jude!)

Father Paul once said that it is in our utter failure that we find God. When we have exhausted every attempt to "do it ourselves" and find ourselves totally defeated, then we turn to the Almighty. But if there is one scrap of ego left, one tiny impulse to prove something, then we're screwed. Right back to square one. Any belief that we have done it slams the door in our face.

A very, very close friend of mine once said that she got in meditation that we are either a "yes" or a "no," and that's all we are. Thinking that we do anything at all is sort of like...well, taking God's name in vain. Isn't that the Second Commandment? A little like the flipside of the First, I think.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Interesting Times

"May you live in interesting times." That was a Chinese curse, wasn't it? Well, at least we know now who to blame it on. All the economic stuff is interesting enough, but the real show is happening right in my own atmosphere. Just watching what kind of vibration I allow myself to have, whether I succumb to fear or get mad as hell (I have GOT to stop listening to NPR!) or whether I'm just gonna breathe. It's up to me. 

You know, we've all been through this before. Many of us were probably alive during the Great Depression, died there, and then came back for these interesting times. We were probably around for the fall of Rome. During our time on earth, we've had to have seen many of the great civilizations come and go. Not that any of it was fun, but it sure was interesting! Now, we might live to see the collapse of the entire ecosystem. That would make the fallen civilization thing look not so bad by comparison. But much worse than any of these things would be to lose ourselves in fear and anger. That would be tragic. To keep things in perspective, I tell myself that none of this is new. I've been here before and this is pretty much the same. 

Now more than ever I feel it's important to watch what I think. I can almost see my thoughts gather around me like a mist; sometimes the mist glows and sometimes it doesn't. I like it better when it glows. But best of all is when there is no mist, when there aren't any thoughts, just that wide-awake, silent awareness - watching, waiting, letting go, lifting up, receiving - in other words, consciousness. I can either be scared and angry, or I can be conscious. I can either control my thoughts, or I can let them blow in the wind. Negative thoughts can either stick to me, or I can peel them off and expel them from my mindspace. This I can do. Or not. It's up to me.

Today, I choose to be conscious.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Inspiration for today...

Man can touch more than he can grasp. --Gabriel Marcel

Good News of the Day:
Half of Estonia's territory is forest. Yet, these forests are plagued with a traditional acceptance of being the country's dump sites. Watch how a group created a grassroots initiative to rid Estonia of 10,000 tons of trash littering its forests and natural environment. In one day, over 50,000 volunteers - or 4% of Estonia's population - cleaned their country in 5 hours.

In May 2008 a massive country-wide clean-up day took place, bringing together more than 50 000 volunteers to clean-up illegal waste from all over the Estonian countryside. This extraordinary project helped to change the waste department system as well as public perspectives on the environment and the possibilities for civic action.

Last year, 650 active people got involved to plan and make that day happen. The initiators caught wind of its success and called a new project to life – My Estonia.

http://www.dailygood.org/more.php?n=3683